HOW I UNLOCKED THE BLESSINGS OF OBEDIENCE
Updated: May 23
On my IG story recently, I started an open question panel on the topic of obedience. The topic had weighed heavy on my mind and I was curious about the common person’s perception of what obedience meant to them. From a biblical standpoint, 1 John 2: 4-6 lays out simple instructions for obedience. It states,“Whoever says, “I know him,” but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in that person. But if anyone obeys his word, love for God is truly made complete in them.This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must live as Jesus did.” But what does obedience look like in your own spiritual walk?
Fearing The Unknown
In the Bible, one of the most famous representations of obedience can be found with Noah for example. Noah was given specific instructions to be carried out by God at a time where he was made to look like a fool at some point or another. Build an ark, two of what, and a flood? WHAT? I look at myself, when compared to Noah, and to be honest, I probably would have not carried out what needed to be carried out.
I mean, can you imagine? A flood was coming. But imagine, the unknown and the fear of it. As a Christian, obedience won’t look the same for everyone. Noah had his own calling; his own walk with obedience. As do we.
It was early 2018. I was attending a church consistently for three years. At that point, I had a messy breakup I was trying to heal from and my emotions were all over the place. I knew I wanted to grow more with God, because I wasn’t being fed anymore at this particular church, and well if you don’t feed, you don’t grow. I started to feel stagnant. I was kind of serving on the choir team, but felt a lack of connection with the people there. My brother then asked me to attend some Sundays at his ex girlfriend’s church, which kinda placed me in what one would call “church limbo.” “So what happens now, God? Do I go here? I can’t go back to the other church.” These were questions I had for God. Soon enough, my brother’s church ended up closing down because the Pastors’ ended up relocating to Florida. It was in March that I received a Facebook invite to a Christian group page where everything changed. This was a platform to connect with other believers, where believers my age could share ideas, verses, videos, and other platforms of biblical inspiration. A girl named Emily (shoutout to my god sister!) added me on the page and it is here where I connected with her and made arrangements to visit her church in Staten Island. Ugh, Staten Island, NY! That drive was an hour and some change for me. If you know me, you know I totally hate driving period. But I liked what I saw from what she posted about her church enough to check it out. Honestly, I barely remember many details my first time there, but what I do remember is the friendly reception I received on my first visit and how it resembled what I had imagined the church I was looking for. Could this church be the one for me?” I asked myself. Only time would tell.
CUHOW: There’s No Place Like Home
CUHOW( Christ Uncensored House of Worship) became my once a month church. And each time I went, I fell more in love with it. How was I going to make this work though? That was a hurtle I faced. Still, I kept it in prayer and I had asked God to give me confirmation. It wasn’t long before He ended up using “Mama Fran”, Emily’s mom, and a true beacon of light at CUHOW, to speak to me about what God had placed in her heart. Emily was going away to ministry school for a year in California, leaving her room vacant for that time being. It was then she offered me a space to live during this time, allowing me to further be a part of CUHOW. I’ll admit, I was shocked, nervous, and excited at the same time. But I still needed to think about it. At the same time, I felt like my hometown was no longer suiting me anymore. I carried pain from my past, lost friends, was betrayed, and disconnected from a lot of people. It was time to close a chapter and start a new one. What ultimately led my decision was the fear of never knowing what could have happened, had I not taken a leap of faith. Oh, and the road wasn’t easy.
No Faith Without Risk
I chose to leave a “ok” job behind, with no money saved up, pack my bags, and live in a complete stranger’s home. My family thought I was crazy. It was like starting over again, but I knew that I wasn’t alone. You see God had given me a boyfriend after being almost two years single, whom I met at CUHOW, and I inherited a whole new church family and friends. But trials still came that tended to question my decisions and instill doubt. Two months later, I lost my car to a 4 car pile up accident on my way to my Pastors’ house. I went 9 months without finding work, being confined with no car. Every time my boyfriend let me borrow his car, his other one would start to act up. I remember feeling so angry and helpless. But you see, God provided in His way. Looking back, I had a fiancé, who proposed the same year we met, and an adopted mom who fed me everyday and never asked for anything in return. I was blessed, even in the midst of trials.
Risks = God’s Rewards: Takeaways
You will face trials! But obedience had its rewards. I look back and I see what I was able to accomplish by moving to Staten Island. I was able to join the worship team and prayer team at CUHOW. I got married the following May. I improved my craft of writing and songwriting, I became the First Lady of #iAM Familia (shoutout to my god brothers Nitti and Dru), I’m working on an EP album as we speak dropping 2020, and my husband and I are expecting twins in July. I took a risk to be where I am today; simply by trusting God. Even when I had doubts, I stayed put. Oh, and you will have doubts, but I made sure every move was a God move. Even when the enemy tried me, I cried, fell, and stood back up. God always provided and He blessed me. He allowed me to appreciate things I would have probably would have never appreciated. Obedience is listening to God’s voice, not the voice(s) of the world. It’s not what you want, but what God wants, and in the end, it’s what you needed in the first place. And sometimes it’s not even about you. It’s about the people who you can touch in your journey with obedience. Had I not went through what I went through, perhaps I would not have been able to bless people or help them through my testimony. In this time, I was also able to narrow down my calling in this process and help touch lives by bringing them closer to Jesus. And my work isn’t finished yet. Readers, let me encourage you to listen to the voice of God. It may feel scary, but cling onto your anchor. He will never steer you in the wrong direction. And when others question your movements, remember you’re not doing it for them, you’re doing it for the kingdom and its legacy. The risks will lead to God’s utmost abundant blessings.